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Date:2005-07-14 01:10
Subject:toDay
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So today I had to wake up early for a dermatologist appointment at 11, and I slept when I got home. I woke up at about 2:30 and got ready to see my babydoll. We spent some time doing things together and then we went to her Aunt Vikki's to play cards and sit in the hot tub. After that we left to get some movies and went back to Cassie's house and watched Million Dollar Baby. That was a pretty good movie. Alright, well that's the end for today...I love you Cassie.


Love, Andy

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Date:2005-07-10 22:46
Subject:Springfield
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Mood: discontent

So today Cassie and I went to church, it was pretty fun. However it wasn't as packed as I expected it to be. After church, we went back to Cassie's and ate some food, then decided to head out to Springfield to go shopping with my mom. We got some pretty nice stuff at Abercrombie, Hollister, AE, etc. and I'm happy with the outcome. After we spent about 3 hours doing that, we ate at Ruby Tuesday's, then headed home. After we got home around 9, we headed over to the Pekin Track and ran for about 30 minutes, then headed home. That's about my day, and I still love Cassie more than ever before. Pssht, funny how that works huh?

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Date:2005-07-09 01:17
Subject:k
Security:Public
Mood: confused

i don't wanna know about it

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Date:2005-07-06 00:43
Subject:
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Mood: my worry is over

Hey, so it's been a really long time since I've updated. However, I'm not really sure that anyone cares about it anyways. I just got back from Arkansas on the 4th, just in time to see Pekin's firework show. The trip was fun but it was tiring. There's only so much of doing nothing that I can stand. We pretty much floated on a river, ate meat, played cards, and rode 4-wheelers the whole time. It was fun though because I was with my baby. Today, or I really should say yesterday was a rough day. There was something that came up that was really trying, It tested my emotions and things were hard on me today. However, I made it through it and then Cassie and I went to put in for jobs. I think we did about 15 applications today, so we did really well. Tomorrow is a great day, Cassie and I celebrate our 8 month anniversary. I know some people didn't think we'd make it but it's here, and yes we're gonna make it for 8 more. So for all you disbelievers you can lick one. And just a note to Cassie, I love you very much and things between us are gonna be perfect after today, glad we worked things out. And Amber, thank you for being a friend to me, I really appreciate it. It was all for the best people, today was productive.

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Date:2005-06-04 01:00
Subject:
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Mood: my love

Yeah, so today was a long day. I slept until about 12:30 and then I got ready and CAssie and I went to Parkside. Then we ran over to her house so she could shower and then to my house so I could shower. We did her chores and then headed off to go shopping. We shopped at Goodies...I like that place alot, their clothes aren't bad.

Baby, you're the only thing that matters
My life is uncommitted, unloyal, stressful without you
You're the only hope I have in my life
I'm lost without your touch, your face, your smile
Any lies that have hurt you, should never be
I could never defy you again, you are my heart
Any smile that comes to my face, is because of you
You bring happiness to my world
And nothing is complete without "you and I"
Strength is defined by people as many different things
But to me, strength is the ability to be confident in what you have
And I am confident in us
Believe me, I am sincerely sorry for any wrong I have caused
And I will spend my life making it up to you
Someday you may possibly see
How wonderful you are to me

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Date:2005-05-28 16:37
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Mood: i miss her

So i haven't posted much lately, but that's okay. I'm not too big on LJ's. But here goes anyways. I've had alot on my mind since my girl has been in Arkansas. I think the fact that I'm so in love has driven me to update and I just have to tell someone. So I'm still working at Subway, still working on my degree. I'm very committed and happy with my life right now. Especially since I'm happily in love with Cassandra Lynn. I've been working out everyday to look good this summer. I guess it's working, I'm not too happy with the way I look because I never have been. I miss Cassandra every minute of every day. It sucks not having her by me right now but I'll make it. Tonight I'm having a LAN at my house. So atleast I'll have something to do. Anyways, that's about it for me, I have to work 5-Close tonight. Love you Cassandra, bye everyone else.


Andy

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Date:2005-05-15 01:18
Subject:Sadda Tay
Security:Public
Mood: dreaming of her

So today was a wonderful Saturday, I guess you could say. I woke up at about 8:30 to Cassie's mom calling me. It's all a big ordeal with Kiersten, which is actually not what people think. She needs to quit coming around me b/c all she does is cause trouble. But yeah, so we got that cleared up and then I went with Cassie to her mother's pinning at 1. She is becoming an RN and I'm really proud of her, she's worked hard for two years. After that, we went to the Creve Coeur Family Restaurant to eat with Cassie's grandparents. They are really sweet. And Cassie's great grandma loves me and hits on me all the time =). So then I had to go to work at 5 and work until 12 which was a friggin' bummer. I hate working long hours and not seeing my baby. But then after that I headed over to Aunt Vikki's and visited my baby. We watched the end of House of Wax and looked at Europe pictures. I then followed her home and made sure she got in okay and kissed her goodnight. I love her so much and I look forward to spending time with her tomorrow. Cassie you make me so happy baby.

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Date:2005-05-10 22:44
Subject:Today
Security:Public
Mood: C-Thou

So, I sincerely apologize for not updating lately. Especially to all of the 4 people that may read my Journal. Oh well, it's not that big of a deal anyways. So today I went on a 2 mile run, and a 12 mile bike ride with Doug. It was pretty badass until we hit the hills. Hills suck, however they do give you a major workout. So I've decided to try and be a little less jealous of certain things. Especially since Cassie is going to Stoned Country this weekend. It's a big step for me, but I think I can handle it. I love her too much to try and keep her tied down to me. I'm confident in the fact that she is mine. And so I'm all good about it. Anyways, I love Cassandra Lynn with all my heart. And i'm pretty sure that she's the only thing I need in my life. Thank you for being there baby...I love you

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Date:2005-04-13 23:49
Subject:i fear
Security:Public
Mood: she's my ALL

Don't you know what you do hurts me?
Don't you realize I'm dying inside?
Can't you feel the hurt around me?
Can't you sense what I'm trying to hide?
You say you could never trust me
You told me you were too contempt
To ever talk about my feelings
Now it's too late to even accept
This cold, cruel world mistreats me
My simple life hangs by a thread
Threatened by those who tease me
So much that I wish I were dead
You're the only thing here
You're the one thing I look forward to
I just can't deal with you turning your cheek
You're too scared to even speak
The lights are dimming out now
You're body becomes a silhouette
You seem so far away now
But your face I'll never forget
For as I sit at this computer
As I cry and cry away
Just know that while you live your life
I'm needing you more and more each day
Sure I may not be that important
For a relationship is new to you
But to me it's what I thrive on
And I need you to grow anew
Understand that I made you so happy
Understand that you NEED me around
Just look deep into your soul
And make sure it's love you've found
You tell me i'm your one true love
The one you thought you'd never find
So treat me like you need me
Treat me as though your love isn't blind
I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU
I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU
You've changed, I'm scared it's true
But nevertheless, I'll always love you

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Date:2005-04-09 21:34
Subject:sweetest
Security:Public
Mood: love you cassandra

so bring those familiar lips to me, and when our eyes again connect
we'll know that forever isn't so far away to forget
because in that twinkle, inside my heart
i know that we could never be apart
so to all the skeptics, who doubt if it's true
feel free to act jealous, cuz you know you do
for when i look into her eyes
the only thing i see is clear blue skies





i love you babydoll

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Date:2005-04-09 00:55
Subject:<3
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You're what's beating inside of me...though mysterious and strange sometimes. I know you almost too well. This melancholy waits for no one, however slow it may come. You're the love of my life...don't break my heart.

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Date:2005-04-05 00:07
Subject:stuff
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With many dreams to follow, who's to say that I can't look back on what's happened in the past? But how dare I glimpse into the eyes of redemption, of vengeance, of unspoiled love. I am nothing but a man, a man in love. But who's to say that I'm anything more than a toy? Left on life to be a pawn of someone's game. I am the same, unchanging, unrevolving, semi-decent man I have been my whole life. Now, I just have someone to share it with. Could she be the one? Yes indeed, it seems I have broken free from any entanglements that hold me. I am small, but I am strong willed, holding on to something that is purer than this world itself...LOVE. You ask me why I feel this way? Well then my friend, I have one thing to say. My heart belongs to one, to only one. My heart is the sweetest of passion, and she is drinking from it.

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Date:2005-03-28 22:05
Subject:me, myself, and her
Security:Public
Mood: loved

As the past 6 months have rolled by, slowly but surely, i've had plenty of time to reflect. I've realized that life is nothing more than a huge merry-go-round. You keep paying money or devoting your time to spinning around and finding the same things over and over. But every once and while, you'll catch a vision of a lifetime, something that's worth the money and time. And pretty soon, the ride slows down, and picks up a new rider. She's sitting right here beside me, smiling, laughing, just as i'd imagined. The face of an angel, her lips soft to the touch. I love her, I need her, she's on this merry-go-round with me.


*The only thing worth knowing in this world, is knowing that there's someone to hold you. No matter what the price, nor the pain, they're there for you. She's my dream*

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Date:2005-03-25 20:32
Subject:i'm in love
Security:Public
Mood: she's mine

So today was mostly normal, just about the same as any other day. I woke up, and thought about Cassie, so I called her. I went to Cassie's around 1, and we ate some delicious fish, which is on our diet, and some tea. Then we hung around for most the rest of the day until about 7 when we decided to get some movies and have a movie night. We saw Alfie, it was okay but it's not what I had expected. That lasted about 2 hours and then I had to take off b/c her parents had to go to sleep. So tomorrow, I'll start a new day of loving Cassie even more than I did today. She's my sweetheart and I'm in love with NO ONE ELSE!!!!!!!! Love you babe. =)

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Date:2005-03-23 08:48
Subject:
Security:Public
Mood: anxious

wow i am so sexy

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Date:2005-03-12 01:11
Subject:Today
Security:Public
Mood: my girl!

So today was a pretty decent Friday. I slept in until about 12, then I got up and worked out until 4. At 4 I went to see my baby as usual, she had to clean so I decided to help her. Then we pretty much chilled around her house until 7 when she went to her aunt's to do some facial, girly type thing with alot of women. Then she called me around 9 and I picked her up. We then proceeded to go to the movie, but it was too packed so we waited until 10:35 and saw Constantine. That movie is kickass. Anything about Biblical warfare deserves to be in my top 20 movie list. That includes Dogma, even though it was goofy as hell. At about 12:40, when the movie ended and Cassie had awoken from her slumber, I took her home. Now i'm just sitting at home, and I have to wake up tomorrow so we can go tanning at noon. Well...I might post tomorrow, but probably not. PEACE!

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Date:2005-03-09 14:25
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So today, i went to class as usual and then i went and seem cassie. I kind of burnt my butt yesterday tanning.
I love Cassie so much, i dont think you understand, she is the most amazing person i have ever met. I dont know where i would be with out her, probably still in a shitty depressing relationship thats not going anywhere. I am so glad we met, she is absolutly perfect.

I have been really busy, that is why i havent posted on here in awhile.

Well i have got to go put out app. so I can try to get another job

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Date:2005-02-28 18:36
Subject:sucky day
Security:Public
Mood: this sucks

Today was the crappiest Monday ever. My poor baby Cassie was home sick and had a bad sunburn from the tanning bed she was in yesterday. Me on the other hand, I had to sit around this dumb house and do housework and what not. I want to see Cassie so bad but she can't do anything because she stayed home from school today. There are alot of other things going on right now that I don't wanna post about, but all I know is that it's really upsetting. I love you Cassie!!!! Well...I will post more later, if anything else happens



Andy

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Date:2005-02-24 22:07
Subject:
Security:Public
Mood: calm

Hey, well today i had to go into work at 1, which sucked because I had a headache and was tierd. But I dont have to work early tomarrow, and I also don't have to work at all on Saturday, which is cool, because then me and cassandra can go shopping. I am doing pretty well on my diet so far, ii wait til i get that 6pack, im going to be so sexy... This weekend were going shopping and i've gotta pick up some trunks while were out, i saw these ones at Hollister that i think i am going to get. Alot of really interesting shit went down today, but illwrite about that later write now Im going to go take a shower.

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Date:2005-02-24 10:31
Subject:
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Mood: optimistic

So sorry guys, I haven't posted on here in awhile but it's okay. Today is gonna be another one of those melancholy work days. I didn't go to class today because I already took my test Tuesday and aced it, so I don't have to go. But I do have to go into work at 1:00 today. Damn I hate going in early, it always makes me depressed. But the good news is that I'm losing the weight that I wanted to. And no i'm not starving myself, I'm doing the low-carb diet, it really works. I'm down to 174 from 191...I wasn't in the best shape but it's okay because i'll get my six-pack before you know it. So this weekend Cassie and I are going to Springfield to go shopping. I really need to buy myself some swimtrunks and some new clothes. We're also buying a tanning package together so we can look good when we go to Arkansas. Well, that's about all that's going on today, other than me missing Cassie which I do EVERYDAY. Okay, I'll post probably tomorrow, PEACE...

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